See the last few semesters even if I didn't have a professional job, I still had class work to do. Well this semester I'm not taking any sort of Photography class, well for one I have finished the 3 photography courses, and now it's just on to things like Photojournalism and other stuff for my major that don't really require the same assignments as Basic, Intermediate, and Advanced Digital Photo classes did.
I guess really I was a little depressed over not having any work to do. Like I said this is my passion, this is all I want to do as my lifelong career, so when I have no work to do, nor the means to go places and just shoot for fun(aka.. GAS MONEY) it really starts to take its toll on me. It's like not allowing a painter to paint, or an Olympic swimmer to swim, or a avid runner to run b/c the circumstances for the opportunity aren't there. Now mind you not having gas money is no one's fault, I'm not saying that, but times are a little tough right now since I didn't get any financial aid this semester, and I can't exactly afford to go cruise the back roads of east Texas looking for cool stuff to shoot. So really unless I have a paying job, I really can't afford to shoot for fun. Unless I stay w/in the confines of my apartment. Which I probably should start there.
Oh and I forgot to mention other feelings that arose w/ not having any work to do. I started questioning if I was choosing the right career. I doubted my passion, which lead me to doubt my career choice. Now I know it was absolutely crazy to doubt such a thing.
Like last night. From about 4:30-6:15 pm I was on the job, I came home, made a quick dinner, and then proceeded to convert my Raw images to jpeg's (which is meaningless to the average person, but basically I converted them from a super large better format to initially edit into a standard file to finish the editing and be able to post them online, like for example facebook and this website won't take Raw files, they really only take jpeg's, and converting them to jpegs makes them slightly smaller and easier to upload/manage online). So I converted all 105 pictures to jpeg. After the shoot I had about 120 pictures, and after the deletion of the completely unusable ones I ended up w/ 105. There's a couple that I still might delete, and/or only use online b/c the focus is off. Like on a couple pictures of the lady's daughter and her daughter's boyfriend in their prom outfits, the focus is clear on his face, but not on her face. Which probably isn't something the client would want.
Well, I need to stop wasting time and get back to annotating these works cited entries for tomorrow.